Margot, age 59 / Maryland, USA

Margot

Getting old is a bitch. You go to bed feeling one way, and you wake up and it’s something else. Aging with HIV, you’re never really sure what it really is. And as a woman, I don’t know if it’s just the aging, if it’s menopausal, if it’s the HIV. And I don’t know how many physicians I had to change because they tend to be pretty dismissive. And everything that’s going on with me, I’m not accepting it as HIV.

You know, I’m not going gracefully into that good night. I’m going kicking and screaming. I’m looking forward to this part of my life. Knowing that all the years that I’ve been on this earth living my life, the things that I’ve learned and thought and dreamed of are coming to fruition. They’re beginning to make sense to me at this age. It’s also great because I really don’t give a shit what you think. And I think that comes with age.