Bill, age 64 / Cairns, Australia


It’s very difficult to meet positive people, because mostly, they’re still too afraid to come out and disclose their status to almost anyone. And I really would like to have a positive partner. I don’t ever want to infect anyone with this thing – because although it’s not a death sentence anymore, it still is very much a life sentence, and it really limits, you know, your choices as far as a partner goes.

I suppose now that I’m 64, it’s not so important anymore. I think my brain has migrated from my penis to my head now (laughs), so it’s not the biological imperative it was when I was younger. So, it’s not that difficult to take. You know, I mean, I would love to have a, a partner. But… c’est la vie.

I’m getting pretty fussy in my old age, I must say. So, it’s not working out all that well at the moment, but, um, it’s not worrying me that much, either. You know, I’ve had some beautiful relationships, and I treasure them, and I carry them with me all the time.

I was very lucky. I met this lady who didn’t want a traditional marriage. And she knew I was gay. I happened to mention to her that my biggest regret about being gay was that I wouldn’t have children, because I really do love children. And so she said to me, she said, “I’ll have some kids for ya.” She, she was my best friend at the time.

And so we got together, and I actually fell in love with her. And we had a fabulous relationship for about 10 years, until I became positive.

My ex-partner is still my best friend, and I’d do anything for her. And with my children, on my 64th birthday, I got some birthday cards from them. And, um, one of my daughter’s comments really sticks out in my mind. And it was, “Dad, I’ve never considered the fact that you’ve got HIV to be a disability. I’ve seen you grow and become a wonderful person, and to go through it all with no regrets or, or concerns. And I love you to bits, Dad. Thanks for being a great father.” And my two sons – they’re, they’re every bit as supportive as that.